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Saturday, December 10, 2005
I don't know why im in love with you or why i still love you. I feel as if you push me farther and farther away. I know we are not together and i respect that. You do what you please as do i. I know my heart still belongs to you but yours travels around. You can do something and have no feeling what so ever. I regret things i did in the past but you, you could care less what you do. I regret a few things. Remember the time we got in a huge fight over the year book and i was hanging out with Liz and i refused to come see you even though you walked out on me and you knew it wasn't my fault. I was selfish i guess but so were you. You left me, when you knew it wasn't my fault. You know i would do anything for you, but can you honestly sit there and say the same thing. You don't care about me, if you did, you would call me. You would hang out with me on a Saturday after work... all night, not just for a few hours. You would talk to me more at work instead of ignoring me. I feel like you have wiped every memory of us away and you never look back. Maybe its just me but it doesn't seem like you care or would ever want something ever again, right now i dont know if i would either because of the way you treat me. I don't know that guy i used to know. I do anything to get the guy back that i first met. That i could spend every waking hour with, the guy i would get grounded for, for leaving the house and not coming back, the guy i would get excited to see when he came home from Plymouth, the guy i would cry to and would wipe my eyes when i didnt want to go see people. What happened to that person i could make laugh everyday and the person who used to cook meals with me or even stood by my side when i got my wisdom teeth pulled. You stayed by me that whole weekend. I miss that person i used to know and i really would do anything. But thats the past and there is nothing i can do or you can do but move on. I love you and it just sucks you dont feel the same way anymore. I feel like i lost everything i knew or ever had, but thats life.
Current mood:  sad
Sunday, October 30, 2005
So yesterday i hung out with some friends and we had fun and i could hardly sleep because i was freezing and stuck at the end of the bed and moved to the floor.
Today i worked with liz and kerry and kathie it was fun. I did putaways all night. Then i hung out with someone and yeah it was weird. We ate some food from Dominos and yeah i dropped them off at home and yup didnt expect what happened next and i dont know what to say to this person because i dont like them like that at all. Im in love with one person, and probably will be for the rest of my life, and it doesnt matter if we go back out im still going to. But yeahhh, i dont know what to do anymore. Yup so heres my favorite song...
Take it back
take it all back now
the things i gave
like the taste
of my kiss
on your lips
i miss that now
i cant try
any harder than i do
all the reasons i gave
excuses i made for you
im broken in two
all the things left undiscovered
leave me empty and left to wonder
i need you
all the things left undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you
yeah i need you
dont walk away
touch me now
how i wanna feel
something so real
please remind me
my love
take me back
cause im so inlove
with what we were
im not breathing
im suffocating
with out you
dont you feel it too
all the things left undiscovered
leave me waitng and left to wonder
i need you
all the things left undiscovered
leave empty and left to wonder
i need you
when im the dark and all alone
dreaming that youll walk
right through my door
its then i know my heart
is whole
theres a million reasons
why i cry
hold my covers tight
and close my eyes
cause i dont want to be alone
all the things left undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you
all the things left undiscovered
leave me empty and left to wonder
i need you yeah i need you
dont walk away
cause i cant fake
and i cant hate
but its my heart
thats about to break
im on my knees
watch me bleed
would you listen please
i give in i breathe out
i want you theres no doubt
i freak out im left out
without you im without
im crossed out im kicked out
i cry out im reaching out
dont walk away
dont walk away
dont walk away
dont walk away
Current mood:  surprised Current music: nothing
Thursday, October 6, 2005
11:13AM
I'm letting go because I can't spend every night crying myself to sleep when i can hardly breathe. I don't want to hurt anymore and I don't like having people worry about me like they did last night. I love you with all my heart.
I'll be seeing you in all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces all day through
in that small cafe, the park across the way
The children's carousel, the chestnut tree, the wishing well
I'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way
I'll find you in the morning sun
and when the night is new
i'll be looking at the monn
But i'll be seeing you
I'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way
I'll find you in the morning sun
and when the night is new
i'll be looking at the monn
But i'll be seeing you
Current mood:  hungry Current music: I'll be seeing you
Sunday, October 2, 2005
I'm sorry for all my bitching everybody.... no more of it. Because i pretty much took the two people that cause my problems and kicked them out of my life.
So in 13 days im going to NEW YORK to see my Brenna cakes! We are going to have so much fun.... were going clubbing and drinking.... we are deff going shopping. AND IM GOING TO LOVE MY LESBIAN LOVER!!! Because simply i love her more than a lot of people.
Also i have SAT's this saturday.... so im going to try and do really good on them but then im signed up for some day in November too. So im bound to do good.
Yesterday i hung out with Collz and it was the bomb. We drank a little bit and we listened to the best song ever. "HUMP" by the Black Eyed Peas. We are the shit at it. We were thinking of doing that song for Karaokee. I love her too we have soo much fun. She is the shiat!
So i hope everyone had a fun weekend.
Current mood:  calm Current music: Hump (Black Eyed Peas)
12:02AM
whatever....
...... i dont care...
Current mood:  pissed off Current music: none
Monday, September 26, 2005
I'm not asking for sympathy and im not asking you to comment either, i'm just going to state how i feel. Yes, it may be emo. Yes, i may be a bitch but get over it.
I don't see how when we first met everything was so perfect the first five or six months. Nothing else mattered but me and you. Now, everything matters. Our excuse for breaking up is pretty much saying is we didn't get a long anymore. We didn't feel like trying anymore. Well i feel like trying. As much as you say you feel like trying, well then try. I know we need more time apart. I'm just so afraid of you finding someone else and me not finding anyone.
I don't look at anyone else the way i look at you and i don't want to. I wish that you could just understand that you are what's best for me. Not me being without you. I love you more than anyone and anything.
P.S. Michaela i hope you feel better = )
Current mood: lonely
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Im glad i found courtney's number in your phone zach, now it will be easier to move on!
Current mood: angry Current music: Dont Speak - No doubt
Monday, September 19, 2005
Yeah, so i haven't written in this in a really long time. So a lot has changed since whenever i wrote my last entry. Zach and I are no longer going out. Pretty much just trying to fix the relationship so it can work out.
I went to plymouth state this weekend and hung out with Liz and Eileen and i basically did not want to come home because i loved being with them. I miss them. I didn't even want to go to school today. It sucks! Seeing them is the only thing i look forward to.
Yup, so im hanging out with Mitch today. We are probably going to play around the world because that is my favorite game and im awesome now. Playing basketball keeps me occupied..... but yeah just leave a comment.
- Sara
Current mood:  annoyed Current music: Bonnie McKee *Somebody*
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
8:20AM
So not counting the weekend there is only 4 more days left of school, how pumped is everyone. I'd say pretty freaken pumped. It sucks that the seniors arent in school anymore, but were getting away with a lot more in Shermans class haha. But I miss a lot of the seniors, i miss our funny jokes. But anyway..... Zach and I's 11 month was yesterday, very exciting, almost a year and thats a freaken long ass time. But hes that somebody.
One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."
REPOST IF YOU CARE ABOUT SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT THEM!!! (EVEN YOUR BEST FRIENDS)
If u would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend,
x-girlfriend, x-boyfriend,BEST FRIEND,FAMILY MEMBER, or just a person u love, then repost this!.
Current mood:  sick Current music: Mariah Carey- We belong together
Monday, May 30, 2005
Yesterday sucked and i pretty much refuse to talk to anybody except for Melissa and Danielle and Brenna oh and might i say Chris. But thats it. Im sick of people just assuming im going places and just leave me here in Nashua. So i've decided to go friend shopping, haha so dont bother calling me and asking whats wrong because i wont pick up the phone. I also dont want to hear the oh sara i didnt mean to or Sara i wasnt ditching you, im sick of hearing it so get over it just dont call.
Current mood: aggravated
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
So softball has been getting better, which is good. Today was good because i spent the day with Zach and we went to the mall and got some food then went to Fun World and played some games it was a good time. We have sooo much fun, then we went to my house and started watching Mean Girls. Good movie!
Alright, so everyone lately has been having guy problems.
Alright Dubes, the girl is a fugly slut, seriously you are sooo much prettier than her and i cant believe he would even say that to you.
I went to the dance on friday and it kind of sucked, so im never going to a dance every again.
So now im sick and it really does suck, i have been getting sick a lot its kind of gross. But anyway leave me one.
<3 Sara
Current mood: cranky Current music: TV
Thursday, March 24, 2005
- Alright in case you didnt know, the ASHLEE SIMPSON concert was the best concert ever. Yeah so all you little bitches out there that say she lip synks, get a life you didnt see her live so blow me.
- Second off, softball isn't the best thing, actually it sucks. People need to stop being fucking cocky and get a life. No one at high school level is perfect at any position. Its not fun anymore.
- So there is some live journal drama going on. Its actually kind of funny, because THEY are making fun of Mary, saying shit about her boyfriend not being tough but in second thought, was it chelsey that wouldn't say shit to mary in the bathroom? Would that be it? I dont know tell me because i think im right. By the way Chelsey, now i am getting to be a bitch because if your going to say shit on Kira's livejournal and not even say it to her face you might as well call yourself a little two faced bitch.
- P.S. if you have something to say, you are more than welcomed to post, because i don't care.
- Thanks everyone for reading this I love you all!
Current mood: bitchy Current music: Ashlee Simpson- Autobiography
Thursday, March 17, 2005
So if you were my friend you would know what was going
on by now and now is not the time for explaining so dont ask.
Anyway tomorrow is the Ashlee Simpson concert and also
the Ring 2 comes out so no school for me tomorrow,
my mother and I made a deal. So dont miss me too much.
Also after Friday night i have to wake up at like 6:30
in the morning on SATURDAY to go to Large group, but
we sound pretty good so that should be fun. Especially
with my girly colleenie and then Rosemary and Cookie and
Kaina. Great mix right there let me tell you haha. Anyway
everyone have a good day tomorrow!
Current mood:  pleased Current music: Queen
Thursday, March 10, 2005
There is this amazing girl i know that did my new theme of the Notebook and I LOVE HER TO DEATH she is my bestest friend.... Liz. Not to mention Ace is my bestfriend too! We all decided to go on a No Fastfood No soda diet. Its kind of hard, but well get used to it. Bestfriends stick together!
Current mood:  cheerful Current music: Tv
Wednesday, March 9, 2005
Do you ever get a feeling to move and start over and only take the most important things with you?
I think thats exactly what i feel right now. I do anything for anybody and now when i ask someone to do something with me, they dont want to they say there is no use to it. Well one day, maybe just one day ill leave everything behind and just be on my own and do what i want to do and find someone that wants to do the same things with me. Anyway im going to watch a movie now so leave one.
Current mood:  indescribable Current music: The Notebook Soundtrack
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